Christmasy Crap.

Okay...I don't HATE Christmas...but it's not my favorite. And the asshole that I sometimes am hates that it's the most popular holiday, which mean it's most peoples favorite.
And for some reason they all get mad at me and say I need to get into the Chistmas Spirit when I grumble that radio stations start playing Christmas Music the day after Halloween.
(Hell! this year Wal*Mart put up a tree and Christmas isle the week BEFORE halloween!)

you know what I say to them....nothing, cause I'm too nice a person...but I want to shout "SCREW YOU".

As I claimed before...I don't hate Christmas. And about December 10th or 11th I start feeling like it's Christmastime. But it's not all warm and touching or lifechanging at all. it's just a time where we buy gifts for the people we love (not everyone I work with, or every person I've met this year) and spend time letting them know we apreciate them. I grew up with plenty of Christmas Traditions...and I believe I broke most of them this year, which I'm okay with.

I had I good time. I spent the morning with my girlfriend. we exchanged presents, ate junk food and had a great morning. Then I went to work, because noone else wanted to...and they paid me double-time and a half to be there....so duh.

(Then after work I drove down to Central Utah to visit my family that moved very far away.)

All in all not a bad weekend.
But lets not dwell on it or repeat it for at least a year.

Geektastic

Sadly the fact that I went to the comic book store is blogworthy news.
It was pretty exciting though. I picked up 5 back issues of the series I'm collecting for only 1 dollar.
Yeah...one dollar...five comics!!
It was exciting, I grabbed one book from the dollar bin and four from the quarter bin...then I got 50% off at the counter. It was quite exciting!!

On a slightly less geeky note, TRON is tonight. So ready for this! I have midnight IMAX 3D tickets. And I can't wait.
And before none of you berade me for going to a 3D movie, which none o you know that I hate, I shall tolerate TRON in 3D because I know it was made for 3D and not enhanced for it post production.

Another letter

Dear Body,
I'd just like to let you know that 5 hours of sleep is not enough.
Just knock it off and go back to sleep. No one wants to talk to you this early.

Movie fail.

I fell like a failure.
I've been watching a movie every day and blogging about it here And I've been doing well...until yesterday. Didn't watch a movie at all that day.

I was going to that moring about 1 am, but I was really tired, then when I woke up I decided to go to the mechanic to get my car worked on, just to get it out of the way.
Well I ended up waiting at the Mechanics for over 4 hours, without my iPod (could have watched a movie on my iPod). I was late for work, and then work was really busy. It was totally depresseing.

On the bright side, as soon as I finish my saftey inspection on the car I get to go to the DMV and put it into my name. Then the car will officially be mine.
Yay me!

A letter

I'm afraid to lay down next to you at night.
I don't want to disturb your peaceful rest. You lay so still, you hardly move. This is who you really are, and I'm afraid you'll see who I really am.
I am not peaceful, I'm fully of worry and regret. It keeps me up all hours of the night. I have to distract myself. I read until I'm exhausted enough to sleep. If I didn't then I would just lay there thinking. And we know what happens to me when I think.
I worry.
I have a big imagination, but I only seem to imagine the worst things that could happen. I have a shoty memory, and I only seem to remember the worst things I've done. Everything is fine now, but I always seem to worry about everything that could go wrong. Everything that I could do wrong. Everything that I will do wrong.
I lay for hours, and my thoughts make it even longer. And when I finally drift off...I sleep fitfully. I tumble through sleep haphazardly. I disturb you. I can feel it. And it tears me up to see you wake before you're ready.
Then I wake up.
Hours before you do. You're comfortable and content. I'm afraid of rolling into you. I get up so as to not worry about trying to fall asleep again, I don't have it in me to put you through that twice a night.
When you get up, you're rested and beautiful.
I feel worse. I dread the long day, and tonight...tonight we'll do it all again.

A New Project

No I'm not trying NaNoWriMo again, failing at that three times in a row was enough.
And since my website is also currently a failure...I've decided upon something else.

After picking up an iPod Touch a week or so ago...I discovered a Netflix application...so I signed up for Netflix and to my disgusting delight I started streaming instant video to my iPod...then a DVD came in the mail...and I was in heaven.

After a few super depressing days I was instantly overjoyed that I could watch movies again.... and lots of them...for cheap!!!

SO I'm reviewing movies again.
Since a friend of mine started reviewing movies on his blog I've felt super jealous and had to jump back in the game.

So take a gander...show your friends and revel in all my glory.

http://everydayattheflickers.blogspot.com/

Mua ha ha!!

Totally picked up the new iPod Touch 4th Generation a couple days ago. And it's super delicious.
Only 300 bucks and as long as I have wi-fi I have everything I could possibly want...and it fits in my pocket. It's still easier to write out long documents or blog entries on the lappy, but things like Facebook are amazing on the iPod. The application makes it way easier and cleaner to navigate and maintain. Twitter is no longer clogging up my phone's inbox and at a moments notice I have dozens of game possibilities...give me a few minutes and I have thousand of game opportunities.
And while I do all this I can listen to my music or a podcast.
Because I pretty much have wi-fi wherever I go...this works out well. Plus Chelsea got one too...and if we are both online we have free facetime. Which turns out to be the fastest video chat I've ever used.
Loving this.
And don't get me started on the gyro in the device, I've fallen in love.

Muffin Top

Yes, today I'm obsessing about muffin tops.
No, not muffin tops...actual tops of muffins.

For years now I've argued with countless people that the top of the muffin is no better that the bottom. They're made out of the exact same stuff, cooked for the exact same amount of time and when placed in your mouth taste exactly the same.

I lied.

The problem is the top part is totally more amazing, for totally unknown reasons.
I'm mostly just annoyed that I finally caved.
I had a muffin the other day, but I only wanted half....so I tore off the top only and threw the rest away. I'm totally ashamed by this.

This post is not about Steampunk.

Had a depressing sort of realization moment.
For the past 4 years or so I've actively kept contact with some very specific people.
A handful of friends I've wanted to keep in contact with. probably a total of 5 or 6 people that I continually text, or email, or call one or twice a month at least. And they've all communicated back. we hang out every once in a while...

but I've stopped now.

Part of me just doesn't care anymore. They weren't going out of their way to keep in contact with me. And so why was I putting so much effort into this. It was obviously a lot of different reasons. Some were people I just thought were really cool. others we were once really good friends. a few were people I had a really big crush on and part of that never went away.

I believe part of why I stopped has something to do with Chelsea. I a good way I guess. I've spent the last three years dating her and continually convincing myself I don't want to get 100% attached. I don't want things to get too permanent. in the last three years I've broken up with her twice.
I love her to death, and I don't want to leave her, but I never wanted to close off any options.
The last few weeks, about a month or so I guess have been both amazing with Chelsea and pretty difficult for me. But the whole time I've loved it, She's been there for me, I've I want to be there for her.

I guess I'm sort of making this a bit of a bigger deal than it is just by putting it into words. And for all I know this whole post makes no sense.
In fact I'm not going to go back and reread any of this post because I'll be tempted to change or remove somethings.

Oh, and I bought some excellent Steampunk goggles that I'm excited to mod and make super cool.

Best night ever!!!

My favorite band came to town.
I didn't know what day they'd be here until a couple days before the show...and out of pure luck I had the night off.
I bought tickets and surprised Chelsea.

Seeing LUDO play live was amazing. It's hard to describe what an amazing experience it was.

First off the show was opened by Tommy and the High Pilots, who I'd never heard of previously, but they did a great job. when they finished I went out and bought both of the CD's they had avaialable, I even bought them from the lead singer and had a chance to compliment him... I almost asked him to sign the cd's for me, but I decided against it...however I regret not asking him to now. Little did I know at the time but the lead Singer for Tommy and the High Pilots was standing in as bass player for LUDO for the tour. And on top of that, the drummer for LUDO is the same drummer for Tommy and the High Pilots....and I didn't even notice.
So I realize now that I liked the band because they share two members from my favorite band...and if I had done any research before the show I would have realized this and geeked out and had them sign the damn CD's I bought from them...but whatever.

Even greater than the amazing music LUDO performed, they have amazing crowd skills.
The coolest moment of the night was when they had everyone in the crowd sit on the floor and they came out and sat in the middle of us all and played "Love Me Dead" acoustically while we all sang along.

We had the best time,
Chelsea and I are totally set on seeing LUDO every time they're in town.

A friend at work got some sad news today. No idea what the news was, but she's been sad all day...it kinda sucks.
Because now I've been sad all day.

Anyways other than that, things are peachy.

Still spending too much money on movies and comics. Still in debt. Still depressed. Still trying to find something worthwhile to do with my life.

Got a haircut a little while ago....seems to be the most entertaing part of my life recently. It'sodd cause it't the first time I've had facial hair and short hair at the same time. I kinda like it.

Been playing through a lot of sweet games recently too. Almost finished with Legend of zelda Ocarina of Time again. Also been playing through Legend of Zelda The Minish Cap for the first time. And I just instlled Spore onto Victoria last night...I likes that game a lot.

Moar Comicals!!!

I've become a fan of Warren Ellis.
As I got more and more into Comic Books I've started recognizing names of Writers and Artists...like Warren Ellis.

The first comic that showed me Warren is Freakangels .

I love steampunk and whilst searching aimlessly this was one of my best finds. I've been reading it online for a few years now and just picked up the TPB of volumes 1 and 2.

Anyways I just picked up volume 1 (and possibly the only volume) of Ignition City IT'S SO COOOOL.
A different steampunk style that makes me all sorts of giddy inside.

Warren Ellis has so many other comics I need to get into, this will take much time and money : ( ugh

The guy at Night Flight Comics didn't even check my ID because he recognizes me and the design on my debit card. Oh no...

eh?

There's a cat in The Man Cave.

I've actually toyed with the idea of getting a newborn kitten to raise. But alas it is not a new cat. Actually it's my girlfriend's cat. It didn't become mine now that it lives with my (and roomie) he's still her baby, she's had him for many years.
It was just a lot cheaper for him to live here rather than her apartment, and this way I get a cuddly cat to live with and she gets to see him more often, because she's over here a whole lot more that at her parents house.

It's odd though. After he moved in I had a day or so where I felt a little freaked out. For those of you who know about my girlfriend and I's relationship....well lets just say I don't like to go so far into anything as to make it look like a committed relationship, I just don't want to make it seem permanent. don't get me wrong I love her to death, but lets just say I'm not ready to commit.

Anyway, her cat living here is kind of a commitment. not a let's get married, or a let's move in together. But still, if things go sour, the cat's living arrangement has to be moved around and settled upon (she's get the cat BTW, no argument) but it makes things a bit more complicated.

I'm pretty much over it and fine now. But it's been an odd week.

On the opposite side of that, I loves him and he rocks as a pet. except he peed on the bathroom mat just to prove to me it's time to REALLY clean the litter box, not just hide the cat shits with more litter.
I'ma go do that now.

This Just in....

I'm spending a lot of time playing video games.
Not that I regret this, cause I don't, but it's different.

growing up I would play an hour or so and be done. I had two days off work in a row...I did nothing but play Ocarina of Time on my Nintendo 64. Sometimes I would take small breaks to play a level or two of Lego Harry Potter on the Wii, or Lego Star Wars :D

I didn't sleep at all for 38ish hours, and I ate only Tostino's Party Pizza's and drank Mountain Dew.
It was one of the most amazing times of my life.
Also it was cool because I played through OOT using a walkthrough so I managed to get every little thing possible.

And of course as I had to get a couple hours of sleep and go to work the next day I went through my normal I-feel-like-shit-because-my-life-is-pointless-and-I've-never-contributed-to-anything-important mood. But overall I feel good about it. Because as much as people are expecting me to grow up, get married, stop making "That's what she said" jokes...stop groping my girlfriend in public... you know, things like that, I figure I'm single and have few enough responsibilities I'm allowed these moments.

This is a test post from my phone.

Geeked Out

I bought my first comic book yesterday. I simultaneously made me feel super awesome and geeky along with feeling like my life needs more meaning so that I don't get sucked into a super pointless expensive hobby.
It was great.

Anyways I picked up a copy of Serenity: Float Out which is naturally about characters from Joss Whedon's Firefly/Serenity Universe. It's a pretty cool comic, not super amazing but a great One Shot.
Naturally this means I need all of the Serenity Comics. There are already two groups of three comic collections I need to get, Serenity: Those Left Behind and Serenity: Better Days. Then another One Shot called The Other Half. I need to get these and read the hell out of them because (supposedly) in November they'releasing a new story arc revolving around Shepherd Book before the TV show took place...and that's the single most storyline Firefly Fans want more than any other.

wow....super geek now.

Joss Whedon is my god : )
(also it's nice to know for sure [even though it was already announced, just not officially] that Joss Whedon is directing the upcoming Avengers movie)

This comic thing might explode in a bad way...my bigest problem is that if I ever actually purchase a comic book I will want every single issue in the collection...why would I just want part of it.
And while I don't suspect there will be a whole lot of comics I will need...there sure are a lot I'd like to read.
Also I'm pretty sure I need to check out Mike Mignola's Hellboy line (due to the recomendation of a friend [that's right Stephen...you] ).

Also I'm really tired right now and I'm in a very odd/hyperactive kind of mood.
Also I'm at work and I just saved sombody'd life
*ting* +1

Failbook

Happy Birthday to me!

I love Facebook, it's great, for the same reason I had a Myspace account ...I have a Facebook account. It's a great way to keep in touch with old friends I'd otherwise never see or hear from again. I'm sure it will make High School Reunions that much easier to ignore : )

I've since deleted my Myspace account.....because it's lame. And for a while I got really engrossed in Facebook, I was tops in Farmville, Mafia Wars, I had hundreds of weird applications....anyway I pretty much cleared all that out once I realized I was obsessed with a few games (I litterally set an alarm at 5 am so I could wake up and harvest my carrots before they wilted :P).
After a few months of basically doing nothing with Facebook, I've become bored with it again... So I decided to mess with people. Nothing very new mind you, I've been in a relationship with my best friend on Facebook for over a year and a half and convinced many people we were gay.
But the best idea came to me a few weeks ago. All of the information regarding myself on Facebook was provided by me... So I had a birthday last week...and I think I'll have another next month.
My favorite part is that friends who grew up with me (whose birthdays I remember) all wished me a Happy Birthday 6 months in advance, and while one might figure this is a little cruel because noone really pays that much attention...I'm sure they'll figure it out when I have a birthday every month for the rest of time, if they don't catch on soon....then kudos to me.

OMG where's my ROFL VLOG!??

I've felt considerably more artistic lately.
I need to paint. My doodles at work are insufficient (although pretty cool).

I find it interesting to that I love using pen. Just a standard ballpoint. My art teachers would kill me, But I find most of my favorite work amongst the permanent scribbles of ink.

maybe I'll post a few, but I'm so behind on things. I still need to try and salvage my website, it's been down a couple months now, I still want to review movies. Still want to keep video blogging.

Also I wrote a poem...we'll see how good it is in a few weeks when I look at it again : P

The Man Cave

Well, I moved out of my parents basement.
Of course I didn't really have a choice.

I opted out of following my parents to the center of the state. Where I would have to commute 2 hours to work.

I good friend of mine and I found an apartment together. And to be more specific...it's not an apartment. It's a basement. In fact we've pretty much deemed it "The Man Cave."
600 bucks a month gets us 1000 square feet, two bedrooms, one bathroom, and a living area, with a stove and a fridge. No kitchen sink...that's the big thing. but we survive with the bathroom sink and occasionally going upstairs and borrowing the kitchen.
We're renting out the basement of the condo owned by a really nice middle aged couple.
Also our carpet is a super terrible 80's red and green plaid design.
It's pretty hardcore.
All in all I like it. Not the perfect Man Cave. We don't have a separate entrance so having company come over is sometimes awkward walking through the upstairs living room. But it's a nice place. Somewhere I can hang my posters and display my movie collections (even the rated R ones).
It's been a month and things are going pretty good.

And I'm liking my job pretty well too. been there almost six months now. Nothing permanent, but it's stable and not too hard. It can get a little intense sometimes, but it's rewarding and I seem to be getting the hang of it more and more. I hate being on the phones, but it's not a traditional phone job. We speak over a custom made Emergency Medical Alarm box and speak with Emergency Services all day.

I also discovered that my eyesight isn't as awesome as I always thought. after a few weeks starting the job I got bad migraines that took days to go away. Found out it was eye strain and I got some glasses. it's a pretty week subscription (in fact I often forget to wear them) but aparently starring at dual computer screens 8+ hours a day will teach you somethings about your eyes.

on the plus side I've started reading more again.
My eyes don't get as tired the more I read anymore.....huh.

I went out a picked up a copy of The Screwtape Letters by C. S. Lewis, it's a book I've always figured I should give a chance but never figured I'd get around to. But why not, I was feeling particularly rich and it didn't cost that much. But then, once I started reading it I found it hard to put down...and it's not a hard read, or very big even. read about half of it in an hour or so, then a couple days later took a couple more hours and finished it off.
I don't personally know much about C. S. Lewis, but the topic of Christianity and Temptation were obviously subjects he studied quite a bit. Definately something he knew a lot about abd out a lot of thought behind. I'm not a very religious person, but I'd probably consider myself Christian. and reading The Screwtape Letters was probably the closest thing to a religious experience I've had in a couple years.
The ideas and he brings forth about the function of the Devil and his Demons is very entertaining as well. The book definitely makes you think, Which is exactly what I was looking for.

2009 movies

If for some reason you haven't noticed the list on the right hand side of this page, I've been keping track of all the new movies I've seen.
New as in: I haven't seen it before
not new as in: it just barely came out.

Totally tally from 2009 was 165 movies

In truth I thought it was going to be more, even though I estimate that I forgot to write down up to 5 of them.