Christmasy Crap.

Okay...I don't HATE Christmas...but it's not my favorite. And the asshole that I sometimes am hates that it's the most popular holiday, which mean it's most peoples favorite.
And for some reason they all get mad at me and say I need to get into the Chistmas Spirit when I grumble that radio stations start playing Christmas Music the day after Halloween.
(Hell! this year Wal*Mart put up a tree and Christmas isle the week BEFORE halloween!)

you know what I say to them....nothing, cause I'm too nice a person...but I want to shout "SCREW YOU".

As I claimed before...I don't hate Christmas. And about December 10th or 11th I start feeling like it's Christmastime. But it's not all warm and touching or lifechanging at all. it's just a time where we buy gifts for the people we love (not everyone I work with, or every person I've met this year) and spend time letting them know we apreciate them. I grew up with plenty of Christmas Traditions...and I believe I broke most of them this year, which I'm okay with.

I had I good time. I spent the morning with my girlfriend. we exchanged presents, ate junk food and had a great morning. Then I went to work, because noone else wanted to...and they paid me double-time and a half to be there....so duh.

(Then after work I drove down to Central Utah to visit my family that moved very far away.)

All in all not a bad weekend.
But lets not dwell on it or repeat it for at least a year.

Geektastic

Sadly the fact that I went to the comic book store is blogworthy news.
It was pretty exciting though. I picked up 5 back issues of the series I'm collecting for only 1 dollar.
Yeah...one dollar...five comics!!
It was exciting, I grabbed one book from the dollar bin and four from the quarter bin...then I got 50% off at the counter. It was quite exciting!!

On a slightly less geeky note, TRON is tonight. So ready for this! I have midnight IMAX 3D tickets. And I can't wait.
And before none of you berade me for going to a 3D movie, which none o you know that I hate, I shall tolerate TRON in 3D because I know it was made for 3D and not enhanced for it post production.

Another letter

Dear Body,
I'd just like to let you know that 5 hours of sleep is not enough.
Just knock it off and go back to sleep. No one wants to talk to you this early.

Movie fail.

I fell like a failure.
I've been watching a movie every day and blogging about it here And I've been doing well...until yesterday. Didn't watch a movie at all that day.

I was going to that moring about 1 am, but I was really tired, then when I woke up I decided to go to the mechanic to get my car worked on, just to get it out of the way.
Well I ended up waiting at the Mechanics for over 4 hours, without my iPod (could have watched a movie on my iPod). I was late for work, and then work was really busy. It was totally depresseing.

On the bright side, as soon as I finish my saftey inspection on the car I get to go to the DMV and put it into my name. Then the car will officially be mine.
Yay me!

A letter

I'm afraid to lay down next to you at night.
I don't want to disturb your peaceful rest. You lay so still, you hardly move. This is who you really are, and I'm afraid you'll see who I really am.
I am not peaceful, I'm fully of worry and regret. It keeps me up all hours of the night. I have to distract myself. I read until I'm exhausted enough to sleep. If I didn't then I would just lay there thinking. And we know what happens to me when I think.
I worry.
I have a big imagination, but I only seem to imagine the worst things that could happen. I have a shoty memory, and I only seem to remember the worst things I've done. Everything is fine now, but I always seem to worry about everything that could go wrong. Everything that I could do wrong. Everything that I will do wrong.
I lay for hours, and my thoughts make it even longer. And when I finally drift off...I sleep fitfully. I tumble through sleep haphazardly. I disturb you. I can feel it. And it tears me up to see you wake before you're ready.
Then I wake up.
Hours before you do. You're comfortable and content. I'm afraid of rolling into you. I get up so as to not worry about trying to fall asleep again, I don't have it in me to put you through that twice a night.
When you get up, you're rested and beautiful.
I feel worse. I dread the long day, and tonight...tonight we'll do it all again.

A New Project

No I'm not trying NaNoWriMo again, failing at that three times in a row was enough.
And since my website is also currently a failure...I've decided upon something else.

After picking up an iPod Touch a week or so ago...I discovered a Netflix application...so I signed up for Netflix and to my disgusting delight I started streaming instant video to my iPod...then a DVD came in the mail...and I was in heaven.

After a few super depressing days I was instantly overjoyed that I could watch movies again.... and lots of them...for cheap!!!

SO I'm reviewing movies again.
Since a friend of mine started reviewing movies on his blog I've felt super jealous and had to jump back in the game.

So take a gander...show your friends and revel in all my glory.

http://everydayattheflickers.blogspot.com/

Mua ha ha!!

Totally picked up the new iPod Touch 4th Generation a couple days ago. And it's super delicious.
Only 300 bucks and as long as I have wi-fi I have everything I could possibly want...and it fits in my pocket. It's still easier to write out long documents or blog entries on the lappy, but things like Facebook are amazing on the iPod. The application makes it way easier and cleaner to navigate and maintain. Twitter is no longer clogging up my phone's inbox and at a moments notice I have dozens of game possibilities...give me a few minutes and I have thousand of game opportunities.
And while I do all this I can listen to my music or a podcast.
Because I pretty much have wi-fi wherever I go...this works out well. Plus Chelsea got one too...and if we are both online we have free facetime. Which turns out to be the fastest video chat I've ever used.
Loving this.
And don't get me started on the gyro in the device, I've fallen in love.

Muffin Top

Yes, today I'm obsessing about muffin tops.
No, not muffin tops...actual tops of muffins.

For years now I've argued with countless people that the top of the muffin is no better that the bottom. They're made out of the exact same stuff, cooked for the exact same amount of time and when placed in your mouth taste exactly the same.

I lied.

The problem is the top part is totally more amazing, for totally unknown reasons.
I'm mostly just annoyed that I finally caved.
I had a muffin the other day, but I only wanted half....so I tore off the top only and threw the rest away. I'm totally ashamed by this.

This post is not about Steampunk.

Had a depressing sort of realization moment.
For the past 4 years or so I've actively kept contact with some very specific people.
A handful of friends I've wanted to keep in contact with. probably a total of 5 or 6 people that I continually text, or email, or call one or twice a month at least. And they've all communicated back. we hang out every once in a while...

but I've stopped now.

Part of me just doesn't care anymore. They weren't going out of their way to keep in contact with me. And so why was I putting so much effort into this. It was obviously a lot of different reasons. Some were people I just thought were really cool. others we were once really good friends. a few were people I had a really big crush on and part of that never went away.

I believe part of why I stopped has something to do with Chelsea. I a good way I guess. I've spent the last three years dating her and continually convincing myself I don't want to get 100% attached. I don't want things to get too permanent. in the last three years I've broken up with her twice.
I love her to death, and I don't want to leave her, but I never wanted to close off any options.
The last few weeks, about a month or so I guess have been both amazing with Chelsea and pretty difficult for me. But the whole time I've loved it, She's been there for me, I've I want to be there for her.

I guess I'm sort of making this a bit of a bigger deal than it is just by putting it into words. And for all I know this whole post makes no sense.
In fact I'm not going to go back and reread any of this post because I'll be tempted to change or remove somethings.

Oh, and I bought some excellent Steampunk goggles that I'm excited to mod and make super cool.

Best night ever!!!

My favorite band came to town.
I didn't know what day they'd be here until a couple days before the show...and out of pure luck I had the night off.
I bought tickets and surprised Chelsea.

Seeing LUDO play live was amazing. It's hard to describe what an amazing experience it was.

First off the show was opened by Tommy and the High Pilots, who I'd never heard of previously, but they did a great job. when they finished I went out and bought both of the CD's they had avaialable, I even bought them from the lead singer and had a chance to compliment him... I almost asked him to sign the cd's for me, but I decided against it...however I regret not asking him to now. Little did I know at the time but the lead Singer for Tommy and the High Pilots was standing in as bass player for LUDO for the tour. And on top of that, the drummer for LUDO is the same drummer for Tommy and the High Pilots....and I didn't even notice.
So I realize now that I liked the band because they share two members from my favorite band...and if I had done any research before the show I would have realized this and geeked out and had them sign the damn CD's I bought from them...but whatever.

Even greater than the amazing music LUDO performed, they have amazing crowd skills.
The coolest moment of the night was when they had everyone in the crowd sit on the floor and they came out and sat in the middle of us all and played "Love Me Dead" acoustically while we all sang along.

We had the best time,
Chelsea and I are totally set on seeing LUDO every time they're in town.